My doctor said after I decided to go to him again, I deliberately push myself through pain to punish myself! He said that I have not yet emerged from the circle of harm in my previous life.
O Allah! Didn’t understand yet!
I’m over my old life, I got over it and I’m still inside it, All my problem was that I saw my sadness as an unreal life. It’s absurd and it’s the reason I went there in the first place!
I wanted to stop being sad.. How can you be sad about an unreal life, for God’s sake!
My doctor didn’t understand me. Neither him nor anyone else.
Only he understands, He was the only one who wanted a real life. gay…!

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